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FOREWARNED & COLD SOUL

Track #1 & #13 on my album Love’s Road which released worldwide October 2, 2015. I wrote “Cold Soul” about a very dangerous individual. Wanna find out who? Read below.

COLD SOUL LYRICS

COLD SOUL
©2015 Karen Chisholm (BMI)
She’s a cold soul
Don’t you turn your back
She’s a cold soul
Her heart is pitch black

She’ll point her finger get into your head
She won’t stop ‘til you’re almost dead
Twist the truth get you so confused
She’ll drive you crazy while she plays her ruse
Barracuda in a high-heeled shoe
You can bet she’s keeping her eye on you

She’s a cold soul
Don’t you turn your back
She’s a cold soul
Her heart is pitch black

Dream taker and a scheme maker
She’s cold and calculating and real good at taking
She’s careful choosing the words she plans on using when she sets you up to take you down
You stand up but it’s no use ‘cause she knows how to play the victim too
She’ll cry to your friends who try to make amends before you know it she’s fooled them too

She’s a cold soul oh
She’s a cold soul oh
She’s a cold soul oh
Don’t look back

Do do do do do do
Do do do do do do

She’s a cold soul oh
She’s a cold soul oh
She’s a cold soul oh
Don’t look back
Her heart is pitch black
Snake in the grass
Pain in the

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WHO IS COLD SOUL ABOUT?

I get this question every time I play my shows. I give a short answer, but here is the full scoop!

I wrote “Cold Soul” several years ago after my first run-in with a crazy making yet lovely little sociopath that psychiatrists define as a “Narcissist.” The word “narcissist” is thrown around loosely in our society, so do not confuse a clinical Narcissist with your run-of-the-mill selfish and self-absorbed person.

I was deliberately “targeted” by this sociopath. At my shows, I say I wrote the song about “someone I don’t like.” However, the reality is this cute little demon won me over immediately with insane charm, lots of cool friends, lavish attention and affection, encouraging words and what seemed like genuine love. I felt I had met a soulmate.

However, over time that sweet little “narcopath” slowly chiseled away at my self-esteem. There would be these “breaks” when out of the blue I’d get the silent treatment, or a random episode of terrifying rage. This caused me to start walking on eggshells and I began to lose myself. By this time, our lives were so entangled with business and personal associations that I was riddled with anxiety. Then there was the “smear campaign.” The slander and triangulation had already begun behind my while at the same time this “narcopath” was still telling me much they adored me and couldn’t live without me. When I started to notice my friends and associates acting oddly towards me (“flying monkeys“), I would ask the narcopath about it, and I would just get more “gaslighting” and blaming and name calling. If you don’t know what “gaslighting” is, please look it up, but it’s basically mental torture.

Thanks to help from my therapist, I realized I was dealing with a very dangerous person. I made an attempt to “help” this person. Bad idea. That’s when the attempted sexual assault happened. I wanted to tell someone, but I knew no one would believe me. Even now just telling you very vague details, I can feel the fear bubbling up in me that this person will attempt to harm me again. I started to make my plans to get this person out of my life, but by the time I finally did, I had very few friends left to support me. I don’t blame my friends though. Sociopaths are damn good at what they do and I wouldn’t wish the head games and abuse on anyone. I just figure at some point Karma will make her rounds.

Wondering if I am just exaggerating or how I could be so stupid to get involved with someone who lies, cheats, steals, manipulates, abuses and gaslights the people closest to them while the rest of the world thinks they are the most loving and charming person ever and you must be the crazy one? I would strongly recommend you read up on the issue before you become a target yourself. If you are already the target of Narcissistic abuse or wondering if you are, here’s my advice:

  • Educate yourself. There is so much information out there about Narcissistic abuse. Just google “Narcissistic abuse”.
  • Get a good therapist who understands Narcissistic abuse.
  • Start making plans to get this person out of your life and go no contact as fast as you can (Don’t let them know you are leaving or there will be holy hell to pay.)
  • Join a support group. I love the Facebook group “After Narcissistic Abuse: There Is Life, Love, Life. Great articles and great friendships and support.

It felt soooooo good to write “Cold Soul” and get my power and my voice back. I hope it will inspire you too! I wish all of you TRUE love, deep friendships, and respect! Hold your head high! Stand up to abuse! Get help!

I’d love to hear your comments!

Love, Karen

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